I put my sunglasses on and took a deep breath. With her hand held tightly in mine， we started walking down the street to her first day of school. I knew in a few minutes that she would be crying， she always cries when she was anxious about new experiences. But I also knew that once inside the room， she would thrive[旺盛].

As we walked， she asked me if I would be waiting right outside the front door when school was over.

“How will I find you？” she asked.

“Well pick a spot for me to stand so you know exactly where to look， okay？” I answered.

“What if no one talks to me？”

“The teacher will talk to you. Shell help you find your seat and shell even introduce you all to each other. And you already know two friends in the class from preschool[學(xué)前班]. I bet they are nervous too.”

She looked away and started to fidget[擺弄] with her backpack strap[帶]. Its the same backpack that we spent 20 minutes packing up the night before. And the same one that she slipped her small stuffed animal[毛絨動物玩具] puppy into when she thought I wasnt looking this morning.

“What if I get shy and cant talk to anyone？”

“You might feel shy at first，” I said to her， “but give yourself a little time and youll realize that you are having fun and feeling more comfortable.”

She looked up at me and smiled， as we waited at a stop sign. “Im scared but really excited.”

“What are you the most excited for？”

“PE.”

I laughed because this is the same girl who weeks before told me she was exhausted[筋疲力盡的] from running one block down the street and needed to rest and drink water to refuel.

As we turned the corner， her face dropped. The massive[大量的] group of students gathered everywhere overwhelmed[受打擊，淹沒] her and her face instantly fell as the tears welled up in her eyes.

“You can do this， sweetie. Everyone has a place in line， lets go to find yours.”

We lined up with her class and just as she was about to cling to[緊握不放] my leg for dear life[拼命地，不顧死活地]， her friend from preschool stood next to her. In an instant， she lit up. They soon realized they both have the same backpack and reached out for each others hand. And as the teacher began to walk them all into the school， she was smiling. Not crying， not grabbing onto me， but smiling.

But when I saw those little feet walk into that big building， it all hit me and I felt the emotion of the moment. I hid the tears behind my sunglasses and waved a bit too excitedly as she walked inside. But the beauty of that moment was that it was only a moment. I wiped my eyes， held my husbands hand and we walked away feeling happy. Feeling proud.

All day I wondered what she was doing. Was she making friends？ Did she find the bathroom okay？ Was anyone mean to her？ Could she put the straw in one of those challenging juice boxes？

As I waited for her at pick up， I felt like a kid standing in line to meet Santa. She came out with her hand waving and her arms outstretched[伸開].

“I didnt cry again， Mommy，” she said， excited to hug me and show me her backpack full of goodies[好吃的東西].

After two hours of hearing the details of her day， we laughed and talked as a family about all the adventures she had.

And as I kissed her goodnight and told her how proud I was of her， she turned to me and said， “I love school. But I was upset about one thing.”

“Oh？ Whats that？” I asked.

“They dont have any Barbies there.”

I smiled and for a second felt jealous that theres a place in the world that doesnt have Barbies， considering that a village of them reside in my home.

But if the one thing she didnt like was a lack of Barbies， well then， I think I can say that it was a good day.

戴上墨鏡，我深吸一口氣。將女兒的手緊緊地抓在手里，我們開始踏上了她第一天上學(xué)的道路。我知道幾分鐘后她就會嚎啕大哭。當(dāng)她對新事物感到焦慮時，她總會哭泣。但我也知道，一旦進(jìn)入教室，她又會活蹦亂跳起來。

走著走著，她問我放學(xué)后我會不會在前門等著她。

“我要怎么找到你呢？”她問。

“我們可以找一個固定位置，這樣你就知道去哪里找我了，好嗎？”我回答道。

“要是沒人和我說話怎么辦？”

“老師會和你說話的。她會幫助你找到你的座位，甚至還會讓你和其他同學(xué)相互介紹。而且你已經(jīng)在學(xué)前班認(rèn)識兩個朋友了。我敢打賭他們肯定也很緊張?！?/p>

她扭頭看向別處，開始擺弄她的背包帶子——那個我們昨晚花了20分鐘收拾好的背包;那個她偷偷將她的毛絨小狗塞進(jìn)去的背包，就在今天早上她以為我沒看到的時候。

“要是我太害羞，不敢和其他人說話怎么辦？”

“剛開始你也許會感到害羞，”我對她說，“但給自己一點時間，你會發(fā)現(xiàn)自己玩得很開心，而且感到越來越自在。”

在我們等紅燈的時候，她抬頭看著我，笑著說：“我很害怕，但也很激動?！?/p>

“你對什么感到最激動？”

“體育課。”

我笑了。因為幾個星期以前，就是這個女孩告訴我，跑過一個街區(qū)讓她感到筋疲力盡，需要休息和喝水來補充能量。

當(dāng)我們轉(zhuǎn)過街角的時候，她臉就黑了。一大群學(xué)生從四面八方涌過來，將她淹沒其中，她的臉立馬拉下來，眼里滿是淚水。

“你可以做到的，親愛的。每個人在隊伍里都有他的位置，讓我們?nèi)フ艺夷愕奈恢?。?/p>

我們和她的同學(xué)站在一排，就在她剛要死命抓住我的大腿時，她的學(xué)前班朋友站到了她旁邊。她瞬間就變得快活起來。不久她們就意識到彼此背著一模一樣的背包，然后就拉住了對方的小手。當(dāng)老師開始帶領(lǐng)她們走進(jìn)學(xué)校的時候，她是笑著的。沒有哭喊，沒有抓住我不放，而是笑著的。

然而當(dāng)我看到一雙雙小腳走進(jìn)那大大的建筑時，錯雜的感情襲上心頭。那一刻，我情難自抑。我將淚水隱藏在墨鏡背后。在她走進(jìn)去的時候，我有些過于激動地?fù)]舞著手臂。然而那一瞬間的美麗是因為它只有短短一瞬。我擦干眼淚，拉著丈夫的手離開了——快樂地、自豪地。

整整一天，我都在想她在做什么。她交到新朋友了嗎？她會自己上廁所嗎？有人對她不好嗎？她能將吸管插進(jìn)那些極具挑戰(zhàn)性的盒裝果汁里嗎？

當(dāng)我在接她的地方等她的時候，我覺得自己好像一個在排隊等著見圣誕老人的小孩。她出來了，沖我揮手，張開雙臂跑向我。

“我沒有再哭了，媽咪，”她一邊說著一邊興奮地?fù)肀?、給我展示她那裝滿小零嘴的背包。

聽她講了兩個小時的上學(xué)細(xì)節(jié)后，我們一家哈哈大笑地談?wù)撝@一天的奇妙經(jīng)歷。

我給了她一個晚安吻，并告訴她我多么為她感到驕傲。她轉(zhuǎn)過身，對我說：“我喜歡學(xué)校。但有一件事讓我感到傷心。”

“哦？是什么？”我問道。

“學(xué)校里一個芭比娃娃也沒有。”

我笑了起來，我們家里可是有一個村莊那么多的芭比娃娃，有那么一秒我嫉妒這世上居然有一個地方?jīng)]有芭比娃娃。

但如果她不喜歡的只是沒有芭比娃娃的話，那么，我想我可以說今天是很棒的一天。